As each year passes I always take some time to think about the changes the past year has held for me. The definition of change is "to become different," and when you really stop to ponder this it is a bit eye-opening. No matter what we may want or strive for there will be change, undoubtedly. Just as we get older with every passing minute and we are on a neverending journey, it is a journey that we can never pause or rewind, we must accept the changes as they have occurred.
Over the past year there have been changes with family; both moments of satisfaction and moments of disappointment. Moments that trigger a childhood memory that I hold near and dear to my heart, such as making jam with my Memere or sitting around a campfire with my family on a warm summer night. Memories that Martin and I have created: walking on the beach barefoot talking about everything and nothing at the same time, going kayaking for hours on end exploring places we've never been before, and learning new things about one another even though we've been together for over eight years.
There are always changes with friends, and when my birthday comes around I always stop to think about those that have made impressions on my life. A friend from middle school that I have not seen in over 6 years, yet she still takes the time to send me a birthday message. It makes me think about how friendships change and become different over time, even a short year. Again, it is inevitable but it is something that happens just like the seasons are meant to change. My sisters and I have grown closer over the past year and maybe that is the true reason behind certain happenings. When difficult times are upon us it is almost impossible to see the reasons behind them and why these things are truly happening but in the end everything happens for a reason. A disappointment, a hurtful event, exciting news, or just a kind gesture all have a repercussion, whether it be good or bad I like to think there is always some good.
On my birthday I also take the time to think about the future and what is to come. Questions like: where will I be living next year? Will I be working in the same place or even for the same company? Will certain people still be a part of my life or will they fade away? Will I lose a loved one? Will there be a new member of our family? What will my 24th year bring?
As I stood on the beach yesterday with the sand between my toes and the waves crashing at my feet I remembered all the good things from my 23rd year and tried to let go of all the bad. Life is short and I certainly do not want to spend it dwelling on the bad so I let the waves take them away. I will never forget but I will forgive. And that is how I am starting my 24th year. A year-long journey with my best friend and husband. So many possibilities and so many curtains to unveil.
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